Shawn L. Bird

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Bio: Crystal Visions of Rainbows April 17, 2013

At the Vernon Writers’ Conference this past weekend, author Patricia Donahue encouraged participants to create biographies for our characters.  She uses cards for this purpose and makes point form notes.  I decided to explore ‘background info’ on the character of Christie by letting her speak for herself.  This won’t be in a book, but it tells us interesting things about her, and how she got her job watching Grace.  Enjoy!

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My name is Crystal Visions of Rainbows.

It’s stupid.  I know. 

On the first day of kindergarten everyone laughed at me when they heard it.  Everyone except Grace.  She came and sat beside me on the circle time carpet and whispered, “That’s the prettiest name I ever heard.”  I adored her from that moment, of course.

As I’m sure you can imagine, anyone who names her kid Crystal Visions of Rainbows is a hippy.  Free love.  Peace not war.  Tie dye and joints.  Yup.  My mother.  Her real name was Martha Grimes but she changed it to Earth Helper.  Sometimes it is an absolute mortification to have parents.  

She did one good thing, though.

One day, in her communing with the goddess through some psychedelic haze, she got me a job.  I was assigned to watch Grace. 

Watching, in this case means knowing who Grace’s friends are, how she’s feeling about things, and helping her out in simple ways.  In other words, I was hired to be her best friend.  I would have been her best friend, anyway.  Theoretically I’m paid for this, but I don’t know if it’s in drachmas, gold, or good karma.  Mother looks after the finances and any of those would be good enough currency for her. Myself, I don’t ask.

My brother Shane is lucky.  Somehow he was excused from the expectation that he be a flower child.  Shane (birth name, Sky Rider) is now aiming to be a corporate lawyer.  Mother rolls her eyes, and is relieved when he assures her that he votes Green.  It’s a small consolation. 

With his abdication of the family burden to save the world, all the weight of expectation falls on me.  Hence the bargain with a goddess.

When I was about twelve, I decided that my mom had been hallucinating the whole thing, and I put my foot down.  No more spying on my best friend and leaving written reports in the silver bowl on the dining room table.  There’d be no more of this crap about goddesses and duty and obligation.

But then the goddess showed up and introduced herself, and what could I do?

It was Friday after school.  I was going to be meeting Grace in a couple of hours, so we could go see a movie.   I walked in the door and there was this woman sitting in my living room.

My mother was nowhere to be seen.  Shane was at some debating practice at school.  I froze.

“Who are you?  What are you doing in my house?”

She smiled and extended a beautifully manicured hand, “Hello.  You must be Crystal Vision of Rainbows.”

I scowled. “My name is Christie.”  I didn’t take her hand.

“Have a seat.” She indicated the chair opposite the one she’d been in.  “We need to talk.”

I crossed my hands and stared at her.  “I don’t think we do,” I’d said, and turned to leave.  I was going to the neighbours to call the police.  I took a step forward and froze, my right foot stuck in the air.  I couldn’t move.

“Actually,” she drawled, “we will.  Have a seat, child.”

Completely against my will, my body pivoted and carried me to the chair.  “Hey!”  I tried to fight it, but I had absolutely no control.  “Who are you!  What are you doing!”  My hands folded themselves demurely on my lap.  Inside I was thrashing, but outside I was quiet and calm.  It was like being wrapped in an invisible strait jacket. 

“Crystal Visions of Rainbows, I am pleased to meet you at last.  I am Aphrodite.”

I gaped at her.  “The Aphrodite?”

She inclined her perfectly coiffed head in assent.  “The Aphrodite.  Your mother told you about me, of course?”

“I read,” I grunted.  Aphrodite, Greek goddess of love (beautiful, vain, used to getting what she wanted) was sitting in my living room in a perfectly tailored, spotless white suit.  Her hair was twisted into a chignon.  Scarlet toe nails peeped from shoes made of satin brocade.  No blouse was visible; the suit jacket displayed her cleavage in suggestive, if not provocative, style.

She nodded, “Very good.  You know that you have been in my employ for several years.”

I started to speak but she raised her hand, and my mouth wouldn’t open.

“Your work the past few years,” she continued, “has been exemplary, and I have been pleased with your efforts.  Recently, however, I have observed that you are growing dissatisfied with our agreement.  This is not acceptable.  You have an obligation.  You must follow through with it.”

I tried to speak, but it doesn’t really work when your jaw is clamped tightly closed.

She flicked her index finger through the air and my body returned to me.  “Speak,” she said imperiously.

“She is my friend.  I don’t want to spy on her.  What will she say when she knows that her best friends is spying on her!  She’ll hate me!”

Aphrodite nodded, “Very likely.  What would you feel like if she were to die because you were not spying on her.  Would that be better?”  Her brows were raised in calm inquiry.

“What?”  I stared at her.  “That’s ridiculous.”

“It is not.  Why would we have someone watching her if she were not in danger?  You are a key reason she is still alive, and make no mistake, the older Grace is, the more danger she is in.”

“Really?” I squeaked.

She inclined her head.  “Your job is vital to Grace’s survival.  Are you enough of a friend to keep her safe, even if it is a secret that you are doing so?”

“What’s so important about her?”  Grace was just a regular kid.  Uncoordinated, silly, crushes on boys, not great at PE, not great at music, not great at math, but good enough at everything, and pleasant enough that she got along with everyone, kids and adults alike.

“If I told you, I would have to kill you,” Aphrodite deadpanned.

Or maybe she was serious.

At my incredulous look she laughed daintily, in a contained, fake sort of titter.  “She is important to me.  I would like her alive.  Your job is to continue to file reports through your mother…  What?”  She’d intercepted my rolled eyes and tilted her head.  “You don’t trust your mother?”

“My mother is a nut job.”  I love her, but she is.  She’s into all the quackery of tarot cards, crystal gazing, tuning into her qi, and all that.  She’s fervent, and loving, and fun, but she’s a nut.

“Your mother is attuned to me.  It is not your place to question your mother’s role in this.  Your place is to obey, and in so doing, to keep your friend alive.  Can I trust you to return to your duty?”

“Yes, ma’am,” I said quietly, looking down at my feet.

“Excellent.  I look forward to your next report, Crystal Views of Rainbows.”

“My name is…”

“Yes.  I know.  Do you understand the power of your name?  You see clearly.  You divide simple facts into a spectrum of understanding, like a crystal divides colours into a spectrum, or rain divides light into a rainbow.  You see beauty and create beauty.  Your name is a declaration of your true self.  You should not deny it.”

I sighed.  “Can’t you call me Christie?”

She laughed that contained titter again.  “If I remember.  We are in agreement, then? You will report?”

I nodded.

“Very good.  Farewell then.”  She rose in an elegant unfolding, stepped into the centre of my living room, and (I swear to god!) vanished in a slice of light, as if she’d stepped through a curtain from a dark room into a brilliant one.

I sat staring at the spot.  I was twelve, but I suddenly felt as if I’d grown up.  I was doing great and important things, even if no one else knew about them.  I was a hero, keeping my best friend safe.  I smiled to myself and inclined onto the couch, pondering what else my mother might be right about.

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(As a bonus, I can count this in CampNaNoWriMo word count.  I’m in desperate need of the 1200 words!  I have been seriously distracted by poetry this month).

 

Camping out NaNo style April 3, 2013

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April is Camp NaNoWriMo time.  You may know about NaNoWriMo–that frenzy of writing that is National Novel Writing Month.  If you sign up, you commit to write 50,000 words of a novel in November.  (Like you have nothing better to do, what with American Thanksgiving, Christmas, Hanukkah, and the like!)   I find it to be a punishing pace to write 1666 words every day for 30 days.  You can join with or make writing friends who you encourage.  You write.  Your receive encouragement or pressure from your writing friends.  You write. You get inspiring emails from the Office of Letters and Light.   You write.   I did it (as you can see by the icon on my page), but I confess that while working full time and juggling all my other responsibilities,  it was really painful.

Camp NaNo is  much less intense.  First of all, you can set your own goal.  I set mine for 25,000 words in 30 days.  That’s the pace I wrote Grace Awakening Dreams and Power: an average of 834 words a day.   At that pace I finished a 157,000 word (400+ pages) novel draft in six months.    It is a nice, relaxing pace, and joining Camp will provide the discipline of commitment and accountability to stick with it, since I’ve gotten a bit lax in my writing routine lately.

So here I am, plodding along at camp.  I still have to introduce myself to my cabin mates (having some trouble figuring out how to email them).   Another nice thing about Camp, is that it doesn’t have to be a novel, so long as you’re writing.  So while I do have a novel that I expect to be working on, I can count blog posts, poetry, and articles I write for magazines.  Gotta love that, right?

Look! This makes 290+ words towards today’s word count! 🙂

See you at Camp?

 

cocooning March 30, 2013

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 6:17 pm
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I am wrapping myself ,

Twisting into taut threads of myself.

Coming in

Closing out

Excluding all.

No gatherings

No natterings

No blatherings

I am pulling the strings

and waiting

for wings.

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The last couple of weeks I have felt many pressures to meet expectations, complete tasks, go along with plans, take charge of things, etc.  I have a number of large professional obligations ahead this month, and I need to focus.  I don’t want to be distracted by what other people think I should be doing.  I want to be left to the work I need to do, in my own time, with the ‘down time’ I forge that is actually the time when the creativity is simmering on the back burner, working for me.

Do you find other people get in the way of your goals?  How do you deal with it?  Have you learned to say no to extended family expectations and imposed obligations to do what you need to do, whether or not they approve?  How does it work out for you?

 

 

need a poem March 10, 2013

Filed under: Poetry,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 1:36 pm
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(Read this one aloud, in slam style)

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I need a poem.

I need to feed on bones of poems.

To seed strong reeds that groan like bones and sound like poems,

I need to lead the words that alone clone more poems.

I need a poem to seed, to grow.

I need a poem to read, to know.

Beyond fat groaning tomes I need the brevity of poems.

To be complete, to seek, to speak,

I need a poem.

 

scribere nunc February 28, 2013

Filed under: Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 7:39 am
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I thought I’d have a ring or bracelet made with a Latin inscription that reminds me of my goal to “write a thousand words a day.”  I have played around with the Google translator and it offers me:

Scribere milia verborum quotidie

It looks rather impressive, doesn’t it?  Unfortuately, the ring I have in mind has room for 30 characters, and this is 32.   I could go with “write a thousand”

Scribere milia

or even “a thousand words”

Milia verborum

I could skip the amount, and just say “write daily” which is probably the most essential point

Scribere quotidie

Finally, I decided that I could boil it down to a single injunction:

Scribere nunc

Yep.  That’s the crucial component of the exercise.  Quit goofing around.  No more procrastinating.  Turn off Facebook.  Quick checking out eBay.

Write now.

 

Twitter, publicity and propaganda February 20, 2013

Filed under: Reading,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 3:26 pm
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I spent an hour today participating in a Twitter chat with a ‘big name publisher’ and several authors involved in a recently released anthology.

There were a few of us tossing in questions and responding to the assorted tweets. Key word: few. 3 authors. A publicist. Members of the reading public? Maybe 4? (I was one of those) All those people had obviously been promoting the event on their own blogs and websites. It just doesn’t seem like a very useful exercise.

I was glad to rub shoulders with these talented folks and banter back and forth with them, but to be honest, it seemed like it was a waste of their time. The messages are now there for posterity for others to enjoy, which could provide some latent publicity, but I’m doubtful of its value.

In theory, a Twitter chat sounds like it’s a good idea. Each author brings his/her own following, exposing them to the other authors. Connect with the fans. Spread the love.

Sounds great. In practice, is it?

What do you think? Do you use Twitter for promotion? Do you use Twitter chats? Have you participated in them?

 

Underlying Grammar January 15, 2013

Grammar is not just a pain in the ass; it’s the pole you grab to get your thoughts up on their feet and walking.”

Stephen King On Writing p. 121

I kind of like grammar.  I like the structure of it, and I like analyzing it.  It’s even interesting when I discover I’ve been doing something incorrectly for years.  True, I have an English degree, and I teach English (and frequently I’m the grammar expert on staff), but occasionally there is still a surprise.

Last week, Diana Gabaldon posted a selection of her latest work in progress (My Own Heart’s Blood, book 8 in the Outlander series) which included the sentence, “I saw the seriousness that underlay the laughter…”  I had to study that for a while.

Underlay- a noun- is the padding that goes beneath carpet.  The  form of the word we most frequently use is the adjective  ‘underlying.’  So, whence cometh  ‘that underlay?’  At first glance, I thought it should be ‘that underlaid the laughter,’ but Diana has corrected my grammar before, so I pondered.

Following the lay, laid, laid vs lie, lay, lain model, I realised the verb is to underlie, and therefore the simple past tense must be “Yesterday he underlay the principle with a moral lesson,” and that “Previously he had underlain the principle with moral lesson, until he didn’t any more.”  It still doesn’t sound right, but frequently correct grammar doesn’t.

Good thing someone is keeping an eye on us, and providing an excellent grammatical role model.

More importantly, thank heavens for brilliant editors!

How about you?  Have you had any grammatical epiphanies lately?

 

in essence… January 11, 2013

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Madame Arthurson brought word tattoos for the Creative Writing Club meeting today.  Cool! 🙂

 

art is life support January 10, 2013

Filed under: Pondering,Quotations,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 1:54 pm
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Put your desk in the corner, and every time you sit down there to write, remind yourself why it isn’t in the middle of the room.  Life isn’t a support-system for art.  It’s the other way around.

Stephen King in On Writing

There is an inter-connectiveness between art and the artist.  Our lives are fuel for art, a touching point, a grounding place, a beginning, but not a support system.  It’s not the scaffold of bones that holds the art in place, because art should not be tethered.  Art flies.

Art becomes the air that intoxicates and enlivens the life. 

Art supports life.

 

reading, reading, reading… December 22, 2012

Filed under: OUTLANDERishness,Reading,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 3:25 pm
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At the moment, I’m listening to the last chapter of Diana Gabaldon’s Echo in the Bone which will wrap my eighth trip through this series (some 8000 pages) since I discovered it October of 2011.  I read constantly: novels for adults, teens, and children, magazine articles, e-books, knitting instructions, blogs, and research material.  I knew it was ‘a lot,’ but I wanted to quantify it, so this time last year I signed up on Goodreads.com with a challenge to read 100 books in 2012.  I am at book #98, and as today is the first day of Christmas holidays, I should have no trouble surpassing my goal in the last 8 days of the year.  (I only got to count the Outlander series the first time I read each book in the calendar year, which definitely has impacted my totals).

I read somewhere on her blog that Diana Gabaldon herself reads 3 to 400 books a year.  That seems super-human!  At the Surrey International Writers’ Conference author Chris Humphreys casually remarked in a workshop that “Diana doesn’t sleep.”  I know that she works at night, but it seemed to me that she must be both a fast reader, and one who incorporates reading into most of her daily activities.  I just came across this blog post of hers that tells exactly how she does it.  Précis: books are everywhere, and her nose is always in one!

I feel like she does, that a house without books is weird.  Moreover, they feel kind of ‘wrong’ to me!  There is not a single room in my house that doesn’t have a few books in it!  Bathrooms have a book or two on the back of the toilet tank, bedrooms have them on shelves or night tables, kitchen has cookbooks, living room has my latest research material, writing books, and a stack of whatever I’ve got from the library.  The basement has travel books, craft books, and hundreds of university books. (I was an English major, so my classics library is prodigious).  I haven’t read *every* book in the house, but I’ve read most of them.  Ones I haven’t read yet, I hope to read someday soon!  (Except John’s psych text books).

DianaGabaldoncaughtreading2 (1)I had felt pretty good about accomplishing my 100 book goal this year, amid writing two novels, keeping a ‘more-or-less daily’ blog, and teaching full-time, but apparently I have a long way to go! 😉  Diana is an excellent role model, however.  She both reads daily, AND gets a thousand words written each day on whatever novel or short story project is in progress.

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Here’s Diana, reading at SIWC.  This is a photo for Word on the Lake’s “Caught Reading” promotion, which you might want to be part of.  Stay tuned!  (I should have used a better camera for this!)