Shawn L. Bird

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past thoughts May 10, 2012

Filed under: Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 5:32 pm
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“The past is never where you think you left it.”

-Katherine Anne Porter

Sometimes a quote just whacks you in the gut.  This is one that left me staring at the words on the screen.  It’s true.

You can’t go back again.  When we turn around, everything has changed.  Like some giant game of Labrynth, every move alters the environment.  What’s was, is gone forever.

And yet.

In our idealized, romanticized, wishful, hopeful past, we may find the imaginary gleanings that take us safely onward.  The loved ones left behind still live, our decisions were right, and history is accurate.

Hindsight is 20/20, after all.

 

haiku May 9, 2012

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 7:59 pm
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My love, your music

rings through the house and kindles

embers in my heart

 

Latin inspiration May 8, 2012

Filed under: Pondering,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:02 am
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I don’t know why I am so surprised when I discover yet another way in which knowing other languages adds so many layers to the words we use every day.  Beyond that, root words I’ve known forever, suddenly spring into profound meaning with a flash.  Like today.

Consider the Latin root spir.  It means ‘to breathe.’  You know, ‘respiration’ and all that.

Combine it with the prefix in- meaning ‘in’ or ‘on.’

This means inspire translates as ‘in breath’ or ‘on breath’

Oh my.

Breath is an essential aspect of life.  Without breathing, there is no life.

Our creativity is essential to our life.  We are inspired as we are in our breath.

When we are inspired, the doing becomes as natural as breathing.

Oh.

My.

 

pinterest May 7, 2012

Filed under: Grace Awakening,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:54 am
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I’ve been hearing about Pinterest, so I decided to take a look.  It seems like fun, so I’ve got a profile going there.  My boards are about the places and spaces that I love (like my own backyard), people I admire (so far only authors, but if I think, I know I’ll come up with more.  At the moment I am so obsessed with Diana Gabaldon I’m having trouble seeing past her! lol), and books I love.

After that, I jumped into author mode, and Grace has a board, as well as Ben and Auntie Bright.

Have a look around at Pinterest.com/ShawnLBird.  Feel free to offer some suggestions!

 

poem – borrowed time May 6, 2012

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:59 pm
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Our sorrowing time

recalling

our borrowing time–

Her falling

from Heaven,

every day an

unexpected gift,

here briefly.

Today has come

unexpected rift,

searing grief.

Her soul’s flown

fleeing and nearing

heaven now.

She’s whole grown

seeing and hearing

in heaven now.

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In memory of Emily Anne  March 28, 1986 – May 5, 2012

 

spam spam that wonderful meat May 5, 2012

Filed under: Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 9:53 pm
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spam spam the computer treat!

Grrr.  Another notification that I have spam comments.  What is the point of all this wasted computer space?  I have 848 genuine comments on this blog as of today, but Akismet has rescued me from 10,171 spam comments.  TEN THOUSAND!  Good grief.

Thank heaven for Akismet, is all I can say.

 

passive power May 2, 2012

Filed under: Grace Awakening,Reading,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 3:28 pm

Sometimes, just being is powerful.

I remember when I was in grade eleven, one of our graduating students, Randy Lawrence, won a play writing competition with a play entitled, “Don’t Just Do Something, Stand There!”  It’s a clever twist on the epigram, “Don’t just stand there, do something!”   It’s not true that any action is better than inaction.  As Lawrence suggests in this title, sometimes, it the best course of action to wait patiently.

In fiction, a passive character is a boring character.  Critics tend to like “strong characters” and it is certainly true that a character prone to doing ‘something’  (when perhaps ‘standing’ is the better idea) will get himself into far more interesting adventures.  I understand that.

There’s been the odd reviewer who finds Grace excessively passive.   It’s certainly true that Grace receives action and is forced to react more than she instigates action.  She is not the feisty heroine who’s out to put all wrongs right right from the very beginning.  She is a quiet person who just wants a peaceful existence.  Truth be told, she should be a boring person.  She’d love to be a boring person, with boring experiences to recount.  Unfortunately, there are those who won’t let her have her boring life.  She is forced to deal with the destiny she has been given, just like the rest of us.

So she’s not actively pursuing her destiny.  To be honest, this makes her like 95% of the people I know, 90% of the time.  Occasionally things shake us up, but most of the time, we don’t set ourselves up for much excitement.  We make good choices.  We play it safe.  We survive to live another day.

Like us, Grace isn’t an adventure seeker.  She’s a victim of circumstance, though.  Grace has to learn why things are always ‘happening to her’ before she can face it down.  She spends some time grumbling about it. You know people like that, don’t you?  The ones who whine that their life is so unfair.  You can usually point to the flaw in their character or the specific choice that led them into their circumstance.  That’s the lesson that Grace (and the reader) has to learn.  We are the one common denominator in all our life experiences.  We carry our hamartia.  So whether we ‘deserve’ our fate or not, some essence of our being has often led to it.  We  are still an element of it.  Like Grace, our passivity may be our power, but sooner or later, it must be resolved.

When I crafted Grace, I wanted the reader to identify with her.  I wanted them to share in her confusion, and imagine themselves in her experiences.  That’s the reason there is no physical description of Grace anywhere.  When I ask readers how they visualize Grace, they invariably describe a version of themselves.  Most of the students I know have outside forces controlling their lives.  Parents, schools, and/or teams govern their time and responsibilities.  They can relate to Grace receiving action, rather than causing it, and they’re the ones I wrote for.

Josh says it best, “Be.”

 

charity and obligation May 1, 2012

Filed under: Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 5:29 pm
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There are some things that we do because we want to, and just the doing of those things is a pleasure in itself.  We don’t expect recognition, or seek it, and that is quite okay.

Sometimes we have to do things that we’d rather not do, and the only value in those activities is the recognition that it brings.  When you don’t like shovelling manure, you want to get paid for having a ‘crappy’ job!  I don’t mean those days when the scent of manure makes you euphorically pastoral.  I mean the days when it’s a miserable drudge, and you don’t want to do it.  You do what you have to do, and you gather your pay cheque, and use that money to buy something you need or you want.  You sacrifice a little something for the filthy lucre.

Sometimes your sacrifice is your time.  Sometimes your investment is emotional.  Sometimes you go out of your way to help someone when you’d rather be doing your own thing.  You may feel obligated to help out due to friendship or family commitments.  You ‘lend’ a friend or family member $500 knowing  full well that you’ll never see it again.  You make a sacrifice on their behalf, and it’s fine.  You do what you have to do.  It’s not out of line to expect to hear a simple, “Thank you.”  Not marching bands or ticker tape parades, just a simple, “I appreciate your effort.”  It’s nice to have someone recognise that you have helped them out at some personal cost.

I’m staring at my 20 year old couches at the moment, swathed in their dog safe covers, and I’m feeling quite grumpy that I don’t have the replacement ones that I’d been visiting at ScanDesign for 4 years.  I dreamed about them.  They were $10,000.  I visited them a lot, but they were well out of the budget, due to the expenses of the household.  The couches have been discontinued, and so I’ll never be able to get them now.  If I had not been making sacrifices on behalf of someone else, I could have had my couches.  It makes me see sad to realise that I sacrificed my fantastic leather, fully reclining, gorgeous eKornes couches for someone who has turned out to be completely unworthy.

It makes me so upset that I have wasted my efforts for years being helpful and supportive to someone who plainly needed to learn about sacrifice and independence the hard way.  Sometimes when we try to ease someone’s path, we deprive them of experience they need to appreciate the value of their own efforts, and to be appreciative of help when it comes.  I regret this person’s ignorance and attitude, while I mourn the loss of opportunity that I could have given someone who would have appreciated it more (like my dogs or myself).

I confess to being more than a little concerned, because once this person was respectful, kind, considerate, and responsible.    Things change apparently.  I know better, now.  I won’t be offering support any longer.  I’ll cut my losses and I’ll invest where the return is better.

 

Yam fries April 30, 2012

Filed under: Recipes — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:17 am
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Take a good sized yam, slice it  into thin strips of  ‘fries.’  Toss them in a tbsp of oil with 2 cloves of crushed garlic, and a sliced onion, spiced with seasoning salt and pepper.  Convection bake 25 mins at 410F.

They’re sweet and salty; crunchy and soft.

Mmmmmmm.

 

spousal notes April 29, 2012

Filed under: anecdotes — Shawn L. Bird @ 2:36 pm
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Found when cleaning:

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Dear J,

You are brilliant, handsome, and buff!  I’m glad to be married to such a studly dude! ♥  😀 ♥

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Ditto!

Biking, back about 12:00

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Last time I looked, you were not married to a studly dude.  Anything you need to tell me?