Shawn L. Bird

Original poetry, commentary, and fiction. All copyrights reserved.

the truth about motherhood April 14, 2012

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 5:45 pm
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At the moment, I’m thinking about The Cat Years

.

Giving birth

to all the dreams

of a future,

a blessing

longed for,

imagined

named

years—

decades—

before.

Happiness

held tightly

and blinking brown eyes

sleepily from a blanket

tightly wrapped into

a cocoon of possibility.

.

Walking away,

snarling and critical,

bored and irritated,

cynical.

Mocking talents,

unappreciative of

sacrifices made,

opportunities given.

.

Kindnesses

rebuffed,

communication

ignored,

considerations

declined.

.

Mocking the dreams

and the sweet scent of

hope that lingered

in the folds of

new skin

wrapped tightly

with what we thought

was happiness.

.

Possibility is a

far more pleasant

contemplation

than reality.


 

waiting April 13, 2012

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 2:55 pm
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“Patience is virtue.”

“Time mends all things.”

Yes, yes.

But John Dryden warned in 1680,

“Beware the fury of a patient man.”  

Because even the stretchiest elastic

will break when stretched too far.

Still

St. Augustine advised,

“Patience is the companion of wisdom. ”

So, I am fighting

to be wise.

 

write on the page

Filed under: Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:43 am
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“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.”

Edith Pierce

Our life is a story.  Some are romances, some are adventure stories, some are didactic, some are political thrillers, some are fantasies…  What’s yours?

 

Myths about writing April 12, 2012

Filed under: Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:12 am
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Myths about writing

LOL.  My first book hasn’t even been out a year and I have run into many of these comments.  

Worth a read!

 

Arg! April 11, 2012

Filed under: Poetry,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 1:25 am
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Your priorities are

not my priorities.

Your time is

not my time.

Your hopes are

not my hopes.

Your deadlines

are not my deadlines.

But all

of mine,

depend

on yours.

 

on the muse… April 10, 2012

Filed under: Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:31 am
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When the muse is dancing,
one plays her a tune.

Just thinking about inspiration.  I try to keep my teaching work at school.  I treat the job as ‘9 to 5’ and mark and prep after school.  I try to never bring any marking home with me, mostly, I confess, because there are so many other distractions at home that I’d never look at it.

Writing, however, is a different thing.  I’ll have ideas simmering on the back burner most of the time, but when I sit down and the words are coming, sometimes it is impossible to shut them off.   I might be stuck, writing frantically for hours.  If I don’t, then the words will still be pouring out, while I’m lying in bed.  There is no sleeping at such times.

So my metaphor is explained.  When the muse is dancing, one must play her the tune, because she will keep dancing one way or another.  If you don’t capture her inspiration, it will carry on without you.

 

Story cube #1- bed to bridge April 9, 2012

Filed under: Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:03 am
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While on a flight to England recently, I discovered Rory’s Story Cubes in the Duty Free catalogue.  The 9 cubes, embossed with images on all six sides, originate in Northern Ireland.  The company suggests that we think in images, and thus stories are opened up to us by rolling the cubes.  Intrigued with the idea of using such tools in my class room or to aid with incidents of writer’s block, I purchased a set.  There are a number of ways to use the  cubes, for solo or cooperative story telling, for inspiration or for competive story games.  I can see using them in creative writing classes, and also in drama class.  I am just beginning to play with them, but here’s an effort at a flash fiction (470 words) based on the following cube roll:

<!–[endif]–>
Story cube #1

Once upon a time…

It was a dream.  I knew it, but it didn’t make it less real, or less terrifying.  Whether or not I was, in fact, safe in my bed, the panic still engulfed me and I fought for wakefulness without success.  I was trapped there, inside my dream.  Aware, but helpless.

There were footsteps echoing around me.  At first, it was just one person’s heavy tread, and I struggled to open a window that appeared as I wished to investigate, but then the treads changed and they echoed all around me, as if an unseen army was tromping through my bedroom.

I quivered in fear, coming to a terrifying awareness that whether or not I dreaming, I was not at all asleep.  I was fully awake, and the noise was real.  I was in danger.

In William Golding’s Lord of the Flies, a parachutist descends to the island to send a message from the grown ups.  The message is lost, and the hope that his arrival may have brought becomes brutish superstition instead.  That’s how I felt as the boot steps echoed, and a supersticious dread of zombie armies, heck, real armies, filled me.

Hope knocked on the door at that moment.  “Hey!  Anyone in there?”

“Yes!” I bellowed.  “I’m here!  Can you get me out?”

There was a fussing about with the lock and then a muttered curse.

“What happened?”

“I cut my hand trying to jimmy the lock.  I’m bleeding all over the place here.”

I waited, with growing impatience at the noises emitted from the lock set, until there was a click, and an outburst of satisfaction from the other side of the door.

I grabbed the knob and the door fell open, revealing the stone walls beyond and an amazing apparition.

I stared.

She stared.

“Who are you?” I finally asked, recovering a bit from the dazzle of light beaming off her glowing form.

“I am, um,” she shook her head a moment before changing her mind.  “No.  Who are you?”

“I’m a prisoner.  I’ve been locked in this room inside this pyramid for… well.  I don’t know how long.  Who are you?  How did you get in?”

“I live here.  I mean, I live in a house near here.  I heard a noise.  I came to investigate.”

Investigate?

“You’re not in a pyramid,” she added thoughtfully.  “You’re in my head.”

“I can’t be.”

She nodded sagely.  “Of course you can be.  You are.”

“Can you get me out?  Out of the pyramid, I mean.”

“I told you, you’re in my head.”

“Yes, yes.  But if you think me out of the pyramid, perhaps I won’t feel like I’m in one?”

“Oh.  That’s an idea.  Are you expecting to get out of my head, as well?”

I shrugged.  “Let’s cross that bridge when we come to it.  In the meantime…?”
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wanna be happy? April 8, 2012

Filed under: Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:46 am
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“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.”
― Abraham Lincoln

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O plans a day travelling through the dawn April 6, 2012

Filed under: Grace Awakening Myth,Mythology — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:06 am
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I waved franticially as the glowing horses approached, “Eos!  Slow down!”

“I don’t have time for you, O!” she called back, raising the reins and snapping them.

“Just make some room on the chariot.  Come on.”

“You’ll add stress to the horses.”

I raised my eyebrows and she glanced away with a dramatic sigh.  “Fine.  Get on.”  She shuffled over a bit.

I leapt up and squeezed beside her.  The chariot was only made for one.  We were uncomfortably close.

“What is it?”  Her breath was soft, with a faint tinge of coriander.

“I was wondering…”

“I’m not slowing down for you,” she broke in.

“I didn’t ask you to!”

She sighed.  “It’s the only thing anyone ever asks me.  I’m not stupid.  You want me to slow down a day:”

“That’s not what I want.”  I met her eyes, bouncing slightly with the movement of the horses.  “I thought I could help you out.  I wondered if you needed a break.”

“A break?”  She studied me suspiciously.  “What do you mean ‘a break’?”

“A break.  A day off.  A chance to get off the back of this chariot to do something you want to do.”

Her eyes grew large.  “Seriously?”

I nodded.  “You work so hard.  You deserve a break.”

“When?”

“When would you like to get away?”

“Tomorrow?” she whispered wistfully.

“Sure.  I’ll take the day off school.  I’ll meet  you at five?”

“Perfect.”  She sighed happily, her golden eyes twinkling.  This will be fantastic.  Is there anything I can do for you while I’m off?”

I tried to look guileless.  “Oh.  Um.  Well, if you have a chance, would you pop in to see Morpheus?

“Oh sure!  I never get to spend any time with him.  That’d be great.  Do you have a message for him?””

 

feeling guilty? April 5, 2012

Filed under: Grace Awakening,OUTLANDERishness,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 6:04 pm
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Crystal Stranaghan was the publisher at Gumboot Books who signed Grace Awakening.  Sadly, Gumboot is no more, but Crystal is still involved in writing and all sorts of other projects.  In this blog post, she writes about feeling guilty about finding time for writing.

I am thoroughly impressed by Diana Gabaldon who says she writes every day.  Good thing, considering how huge her books are, and how desperate her fans are for her to finish them!  I know that a little work every day adds up quickly, but I also know how difficult it is to carve out time to do the work.  Gabaldon posts ‘daily lines’ almost every day on her website and Facebook, so it appears to be true. 🙂  She is juggling a few different projects, but there is a little snippet of writing from something to feed the fans.

I seem to find time for the blog, but it takes a little more effort to fit in the novel work.  The most words seem to fill my brain just as I’m about to drop off to sleep.  This is not always conducive to adequate rest, I confess.

Crystal says she feels guilty for taking the time to write.  By contrast, I feel guilty for not writing! ;-P  I know when I am working on a novel, I am making an investment that will pay off in the future.

How about you? Are you guilty for writing or for not writing?  How do you carve time to write in your day?