Shawn L. Bird

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winter evening tanka November 21, 2010

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 9:38 pm
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The road is frosted
with a sparkling coat of white.
Car lights twinkling
Slipping, sliding and spinning,
Sparkle camouflages ice.

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(At this juncture, the car is off the road, and the driver is standing forlornly with arms crossed, hands tucked under arm pits, stomping his/her feet to keep warm while s/he waits for someone to push him out of the ditch…  Welcome to winter!)

 

snow haiku November 19, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 2:28 am
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Gentle crystals fall.
Dancing through the frost filled air,
winter comes again

 

 

 

 

poverty November 18, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 1:10 am

I’m thinking of poverty today.  I see these great masses of people with no education with very specific skill sets who find themselves in incredible financial difficulty.  Some are creative- they garden, they craft, they volunteer, and so their quality of life leaves them quite content despite a lack of funds.  They learn what is a want and what is a need, and they’re able to make comfortable lives for themselves.

There are also those who are constantly confused about their poverty.  The cause and effects are lost on them.  Perhaps it is no fault of their own, but money falls through their banks due to foolish decisions, unscrupulous advice, or plain bad luck.  I’ve learned that there is a line that makes it very difficult for a family to dig itself out of poverty- like if they’ve fallen behind in ICBC payments, for example, the insurance is cut off, and the poor person can no longer be on a monthly payment plan.  Without that option, many can never afford to put their vehicle on the road, and then how do they get to a job or the less expensive groceries when transit systems are poor or non-existent?   It becomes a downward spiral.

It seems to me that people without addictions who are holding jobs should not be forced into poverty in Canada.  If their health is an issue (either mental or physical) there should be supports in place to help them remain secure.  What kind of programs or systems need to be in place to support  families to get the skills training or the financial training or micro-credit to help them get ahead?  Do you have any ideas?

 

kharma November 17, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:16 am

People  ask me, “What do you like best about your job?” and I answer,

“Students.”

People ask me, “What do you like least about your job?” and I answer,

“Students.”

I’m being a little bit facetious.  Boring meetings and report cards (especially Middle School report cards!) are certainly not fun parts of my job, but truly, a determined student can make my job really awful.

Two weeks ago, I’d discovered, much to my astonishment, that I really liked teaching in the Middle School.  I really liked my students (even the little rebels and the mouthy ones) and enjoyed heading to work every day.  Then some little monster decided to steal my iPod Touch out of my purse (and unless s/he pickpocketed it while I was carrying the purse, from a locked cabinet as well).  I like them a whole lot less now. 

Isn’t it sad how one rotten apple can spoil everything?  Now I look around the room and I wonder who is a sneaky, lying thief.  I wonder who has so little respect for her/himself and for me that s/he is willing to go to that effort.  I am saddened that after 18 years, someone stole from my personal property in such a callous and ignorant way. 

I wonder, is the thief is a pathetic kid from a crappy broken home who doesn’t know any better? or a kid from a wealthy home who just wants to see if s/he can do it?  was it a dare? or an impulse? 

What happens next?  Is s/he afraid to return it? is it hidden somewhere?

I know a couple of boys who at that age ‘accidentally’ stole things.  They didn’t really mean to, but the impulse urged an action, and then they had stolen goods in their hands and were too afraid to return them, fearing greater consequence.   I suspect that is what happened in my classroom.  I think it was a bit of a challenge, and then the thief didn’t know what to do.

Well, I’ll help you out.  This is what you need to do to avoid a lifetime of guilt  and bad kharma

Put the iPod in  an envelope.  Label it “Mrs Bird.  Carlin”    Take it to any SD83 school or to the board office and have them put it in the school mail.   It will arrive in my hands a few days later.  Your guilt will be absolved, and I will send you some good kharma for making a good decision.

Seriously.  You don’t want bad kharma.  The last kid who stole from me ended up as a drug addict for a $5 theft.  You don’t want that multiplied 100 times.  You’ll end up rotting in a hundred pieces in a tar pit or something.  The universe looks after this sort of thing in a big way.  Save yourself the agony! Return the iPod!

 

what does love sound like? November 16, 2010

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 3:57 am
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(overheard in a toxic home)

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I’ll love you

Won’t you love me?

I can love you

Despite my self-loathing.

I’ll love you

I’ll give you whatever you want.

I’ll love you.

I’ll make you feel like a man

I’ll love you.

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(and he believed)

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I love you if you give me everything

You’re stupid.

I love you when you buy me anything

You are an idiot.

I love you because you pay in blood

You call that manly?

I love you.  Maybe.

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(what does love sound like, girl? 

is this what your mother taught you?)

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I love you if you obey my command.

Get out of here!

I love you if you give me your soul.

You’re weak.

I love you if you beg.

Fine, come back.  For now.

Yeah.  Okay.  I still love you.

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(so you can

torture him some more)

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I love you if you grant my every wish

Shut up.

I love you but you have no rights to anything.

Get out and stay out.

I think that I don’t love you any more.

Do this for me

I might love you again.

Here’s the knife to rip out your own heart.

No.  I don’t love you after all

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(we heard your every word, hon

 not just the public words.

you have no idea what love sounds like). 

 

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Again- Stockholm Syndrome!  Help others!  Abused spouses of either sex need to get help to recognise that they are being verbally and emotionally abused, and to understand that their abuser is controlling them by mis-labeling abuse as love.  It’s NOT love!    Healthy relationships do not look like this.  It doesn’t matter that it’s all you’ve known love to be.  You’re worth more than this!  See a professional.  Get help.  Get out.  GET A LAWYER!!

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Shared as part of Jingle’s Monday Poetry Potluck on the theme of EMOTIONS.  Quite a few here: publically mouthing of manipulative “I love yous” (on the left) which really demonstrate hatred and disgust to the abused spouse not the love they profess.  (See the private words in the centre column).  As well the ‘Greek chorus’ (commenting on the right side of the page) offers distain for the abuser and compassion for the victim…

 

how far we’ve come November 15, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:05 am
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I’ve needed some long underwear for awhile, and I finally picked some up last week for a trip to Banff.

Oh my. Times have changed! Today’s thin, ultra-light, wicking microfibre ‘base layers’ bear little resemblance to the old cotton waffle weave!

True story: the last long johns I had were hand me downs. I needed a pair for Girl Guide winter camp.  I was 11 or something.  Somehow, my mom managed to get some from her friend Shirley whose son had outgrown his. Yes. Son. I was rather unimpressed, but she cut out the flap and sewed it down to give it a facsimile of a feminine cut. I wore those cotton waffle weave, boy adapted long johns until they had giant holes in the knees. I was leading my own Guide unit by that time, and probably 50 lbs heavier. I wore those bulky waffle weave long johns for almost thirty years! It wasn’t long ago that I finally shredded those and they became bike rags.

I deserved new warm long underwear. I am thrilled with the coziness of the new generation of winter undergarments.  If you haven’t upgraded from cotton waffle weave, it’s time to join me in the modern era.  You won’t regret the purchase!

 

Shawn and John Forever November 14, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 9:59 pm

 

A little acrostic offering:

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Sureness, hope and wonder now

approve necessary decisions.

Journeying over horizons nestled

Beautifully in rapturous days.

Freed, our restlessness entrances.  Voices endlessly reassure.

 

words are mutable November 13, 2010

Filed under: Commentary,Grace Awakening,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 8:40 pm

I’m working through my solo final edit of Grace Awakening before the manuscript heads off to the publisher.  I’m excited about sending it off and what comes next– editing some more! At that point I’ll have the benefit of a professional editor, and I’m really looking forward to learning from that process.  I can’t believe that I am still fixing, tightening, and eliminating chunks on EVERY page even after editing it twenty or more times already.  So today I’m thinking the most important writing advice is

“Don’t fall in love with your words!”  

Why?  Because you will have to change them, improve them or remove them to improve the story.  Words are just a part of the whole, and the whole is improved with polished parts.

 

Remembrance Day November 11, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 10:06 am

As a kid, I’d go each year to the cenotaph with my dad to remember his friends who were killed in the war.  What a powerful thing.

At our school assembly this year, I was brought to tears by the class who as they were leaving, went up to the vet who’d been our special speaker and shook his hand.  Every kid.  The next class wanted to as well.  The kids forged a connection to the veteran, and the veteran was  so astonished and so happy I am sure he’ll be sharing the story for years.

I’m so thankful that my former student Drew came home from Afghanistan.  I tensed every time they came on the news to report another casualty.  Not all friends and families were so lucky.

Every year I like to spend some time with the Eric Bogle tune Green Fields of France.  I usually play it on my harp, singing the words rather tearfully every Nov 11.  Have a listen:

If you value your freedom, thank a veteran.  They’re the ones who bought it for you.

 

being a statistic November 10, 2010

Filed under: Commentary,Grace Awakening,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 7:24 pm
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Meg Tilley says in her blog (September 9, 2010) that of 1.5 million books published in a year, only 1.68% will sell 5000 copies in a year.  I’m not sure if she talking worldwide, English speaking world, US, Canada or what.  1.68% seems like an impossibly miniscule number.  My math is always suspect (i.e. please correct me if you are good at this!) but by my calculations that 1.68% of 1.5 million equals about twenty-five thousand books.  That sounds much more do-able.  I can be one of those lucky twenty-five thousand books that hit over five thousand in sales, right? Let’s do it together, okay? 

In Canada a best seller is 3000 copies a week.  Can we do it?