Shawn L. Bird

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Bye Sheila. The end of an era… June 18, 2023

Filed under: anecdotes,Friendship,OUTLANDERishness,Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 4:40 pm
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In 2008, I was 44. My kids were grown and gone. I was writing my first novel. I was president of my Rotary Club. I wanted to buy my dream car. In the previous 23 years, hubby had done all vehicle purchases for the family. I hated his boring choices. I wanted a fun, cute car that got amazing fuel economy. So, I saved. I spent $10,000 of my own money on my dream car: A 2000 TDI New Beetle that was dubbed “Sheila the Bug.”

Sheila was quickly adorned with decals of butterflies and flowers. She became a fixture in town. Everyone knew when I was at an event. People spotted me on highways and wrote to ask where I was going. Everyone smiled when they saw her (except the jerk who keyed her in the parking lot of the Delta South Hotel in Calgary or the people whose friends punched them because they didn’t read the sign that she is a “HUG BUG-no punches allowed!” So many little girls eyes lit up as they whispered, “I LOVE YOUR CAR!” She got 1000 km on a tank. I could drive to Calgary and back to the Shuswap on a single tank! What a gal!

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Sheila even hosted a celebrity passenger! In 2014 I picked up Outlander author Diana Gabaldon at the airport to bring her to our local writing conference. When she got into the car, she noticed what was in my bud vase and laughed, “Pocket Jamie gets around!” In my nervous excitement I forgot how to shift gears for a few minutes as we drove through the parking lot! When we were stopped by a paving crew for 20 minutes when we were almost in town, it was the most fun I’d had while stopped by a flagger, as we chatted about what it was like to film her cameo performance in the MacKenzie’s Gathering episode of the Outlander TV show.

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And heavens- I almost forget her ALMOST celebrity passenger! In 2013, we drove by Jamie Fraser himself (that is, Sam Heughan) when he was stranded with his brother on the side of the road in the Trans-Canada Highway as we were going to Calgary! I wrote about that experience here.

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Sheila had 145,000 km when I bought her. We have shared 158,000 km in our 15 years together. We drove as far south as Ellensberg, WA, as far west as Vancouver Island, as far north and east as Stettler AB (not very east or north, really!) I’d aimed to get to 400,000, but it is not to be.

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I have purchased my second car, a 2017 Honda Fit/Honda Jazz. She’s only got 35,000 km. She’ll get a few of Sheila’s decals on her butt in tribute to my first beloved car, so full of character and fun.

Happy trails, Sheila. We’ll miss you.

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A suicidal raccoon in 2012 is the reason for the bumper in the original Cyber Green. 11 years and it didn’t fade like the original paint did. I love the beautiful blue/green she aged to!
Scarred by a jealous cowboy. How many hugs did we see when we went by?

I really wanted to take a photo of Diana in my car at the time, but I thought that would just be weird. While she already had my measure from a few other interactions in the previous 3 years, I was trying really hard not to be weird! lol

May be an image of 1 person, rear-view mirror and toy

Pocket Jamie sat in my bud vase for a decade. He was a promotional item made for the first season of Outlander (which remains the only season I have seen in its entirety. By season 2 they’d made too many changes to Diana’s books for me).

 

#30Words30Days 30 belong April 30, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 7:15 am
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Final prompt for the 30 Word story challenge in April! Belong.

I did it! I wrote thiry 30-word stories this month. If you scroll backwards from 1-30, an over-arching story connects all 30.

They embrace amid their families.  “We’re not alone. We are loved. We will survive this.  When we’re ready, we can try again.”

“Until then, we can be thankful for love.”

 

#30Words30Days 29 company April 29, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 9:15 pm
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29th prompt is company. Thirty 30 word stories in April.

Hushed whispers: “Me, too”

She’s astonished. “I had no idea so many relatives have known this loss.”

No one wants to be in this company. But there is comfort here.

 

#30Words30Days 28- clan April 28, 2023

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 8:30 am
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Day 28 prompt for the 30Words30Days story challeng is ‘clan’. I interpreted that as a large family of extended relatives.

Her mother phoned. “We’re having a funeral. You both need a formal acknowledgement of this loss.  I’m calling the relatives.”

Bouquets.

The ultrasound picture.

Speeches about lost futures.

Communal grief.

 

#30Words30Days 27- meeting April 27, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 8:40 pm
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27th prompt for the 30Words30Day microfiction challenge is “meeting”.

Their eyes met over the breakfast table.

“We have some decisions to make,” he said. “Can we move forward? Or will we be stuck in this grief forever?”

She wept.

 

#30Words30Days 26-native April 26, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 8:35 am
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Prompt #26 for the 30Words30Day story challenge is “native” I’m using the meaning of ‘innate’ and that term.

Is it an innate response to avoid someone else’s pain, even when it’s the same?

Does sharing double the grief or halve it? 

He can’t decide, but staying feels important.

 

#30Words30Days- 25 initiation April 25, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 8:18 am
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Day 25 prompt: initiation for the 30Words30Days challenge

He phones home to talk to his father.

“It’s a hell of initiation into adulthood,” Dad sighs.

“Got any advice?”

“Not a damn thing, kid. Just keep on keeping on.”

 

#30Words30Days- 24 clique April 24, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 7:40 pm
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Day 24 of prompts for 30 word story. Today “clique”

At the grocery store, there are mothers and babies wherever she looks.  Bulging, expectant bellies stab her heart.

What she should be. What she isn’t.  

Will this ache ever stop?

 

#30Words30Days- 23 ritual April 23, 2023

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 7:41 am
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Another prompt for 30Words30Day challenge. Today’s ‘ritual’

She tries to bring normalcy to their days by making everything a ritual. Make breakfast at 7:30.  Do laundry on Mondays.  Shop on Wednesdays.  Eat at 6:00.

It doesn’t help.

 

#30Words30Days 22 adjacent April 22, 2023

Filed under: narrative,Writing — Shawn L. Bird @ 5:46 pm
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30Words30Day challenge to the prompt ‘adjacent’

Toddlers ‘parallel play’ rather than interact. He feels that same disconnect.

They’re side-by-side, like they’re floating on the waves, pulled apart, fighting back to each other.

Adjacent grief is exhausting.