Shawn L. Bird

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trying October 5, 2010

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 10:17 pm

Sometimes you try for so long to reach a goal, that the striving is your life.  If the striving is arduous, the effort can be exhausting.  If year after year you’re trying to carve your dreams, but you can’t make them happen, it’s not surprising that you might be too tired to keep trying.  You might get too tired to face the constant struggle.  You might decide the relationship you’ve been trying to salvage is just not worth the effort.  If after a couple decades of trying to make something better, if it’s not working, perhaps it’s time to accept that maybe life doesn’t have to be so much of a struggle.

Maybe you know you’ve been in a terrible situation, but you won’t want to let go of the hopes and dreams you started with.  If that struggle is all you’ve ever known, then it might be hard to see that there might be another way of living.  A peaceful, comfortable, satisfying way of living.  A way that doesn’t involve a state of constant warfare, sense of inadequacy, pain, and never quite living up to expectations.  Give it time.

Slowly you will see that others value you.  It will perhaps surprise you to see that they value you more than you were valued by people you thought loved you.   Not everyone is so critical of you.  Others may see potential that has been crushed in you. 

Let go of the burden and look into the future.  Let go of the toxins and poisons that warped your perspective and see what a clean and healthy life can look like.  Let yourself heal.  Get the medical help you need to grow stronger.  Many would be happy to love a respectful, decent person like you.  You’re worth it, even if it didn’t work with the last one.   There were lessons there.  Take the lessons, and look forward to better, because you deserve more than you’ve had, while you’ve been trying to hold on to something that wasn’t worth holding onto.

Try.

 

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