Shawn L. Bird

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gratefulness February 13, 2011

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On the heels of my gratefulness to all of you who visit www.shawnbird.com, leave me comments, and even those who write me to tell me I’ve left them too long without a post, I’ve decided to make this whole week about gratefulness.

It isn’t hard to be grateful, since I have been given a really wonderful life.  I have a husband who is a truly amazing and brilliant man (this is unanimous, ask everyone who works with him), I have very independent kids, I have adorable canine companions, who pay back their hefty vet bills with lots of affection, and I have a very rewarding job.  I don’t take any of it for granted.  I have friends who are divorced or widowed, estranged from their children, or emeshed with them, who have lost their pets, and who are out of work.  I am thankful for the good decisions and the good luck that combined to make my life.

Good decisions?  Well, I met my husband at a college, not a bar.  I think that improved our chances of avoiding a lot of agony that comes with addiction issues that have hurt other friends.   We very conscientiously trained our kids to make their own decisions and let them make their own mistakes and get on with it.  We don’t ever expect to see them moving back in with us because they can’t make a go of it in the real world.  We went to university and got education that gave us practical career skills.  Although we didn’t imagine our careers would go as they did,  our training has provided us with a good life in a beautiful place.   

Although we improved the odds with some good decisions, in the end there is a lot of luck involved in any happiness.  A major illness.  An accident.  Any little thing could have crashed through this  very fragile balance, and made us widowed, unemployed, and suffering. 

I’m thankful for my good fortune.  May you be as blessed.

 

Numbers February 12, 2011

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I am constantly amazed by the site stats for this blog.  Yesterday I made my 250th post since May 16, 2010.  That’s not quite one per day, but it’s pretty close.  There are 399 comments from visitors. I love this!  I remember how excited I was when comment numbers passed post numbers!  Now I’m aiming for the day when there are twice as many comments as there are posts.  (Feel free to help me  reach this goal, by leaving a comment somewhere on the blog today!) 😉

Most important is the sheer number of people who drop by.  The number is closing on 9000.   That is so fantastic!  Nearly a thousand people a month pop in to pay me a visit, and I am so honoured by this fact.  I love that I have readers, and that you keep coming back! Thank you for coming.  Thank you for supporting the endeavour.  Thank you for being you!

 

Farmer casserole February 11, 2011

Filed under: Recipes — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:20 am
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This is based on maanmiehenlaatiko– a Finnish one dish meal I enjoyed in the Helsinki  train station in 2006.  I made it for Super Bowl Sunday this year.

You need a big casserole dish for this- 4 inches high, 10X15 or so.  I used a roasting pan.  As well, you need a rather large frying pan.

I was serving 6, so I started with 6 smokies in  the frying pan.  (These are flavourful, big sausages about 1.5″ diameter and 6″ long).  I diced these up into 1/2″ slices and sauteed them with 2 diced onions and 3 large carrots.  The frying pan was full, but when everything was cooked, I poured the mix into the casserole dish.

Next I chopped up  a small head of cabbage, stirred in a large 28 oz can of diced tomatoes and simmered in the frying pan until the cabbage was cooked, then it was poured into the casserole dish. Everything was stirred together. 

Finally, about 4 cups of frozen hash brown potatoes were sauteed in the frying pan until they were thoroughly cooked and then they were stirred into the casserole dish.

Seasoning salt, black pepper and 1 tbsp of dill weed sprinkled and stirred gently to combine all ingredients.

Bake the casserole for an hour at 350 degrees.

Yummy supper!!

 

appearances February 9, 2011

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 6:52 pm
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I ran into a former student the other day. She’s the kind of kid that it’s easy to make assumptions about. She has flaming fuchsia and kool-aid orange hair. She has about a dozen extraneous holes around  her face, some  half an inch around. Her arms are an art canvas.   At age twenty-two she’s demonstating a seriously colourful personality (though I assure you, she was pretty colourful at sixteen, as well).

So what would you think of her if you saw her on the street?  Rough kid?  Loser?  Street kid?  

It might surprise you that though she looks like she’s out on the fringes, she has well-paying job, and you probably would not be shocked that it’s in a piercing place, but would you be surprised to know that she has had an apprenticeship and has been working in her trade since she was 18?  Would you be surprised to know that at age 22 she owns her own house, mortgage free?

She may look like a rebellious teeny-bopper, but there’s a lot of sense and responsibility under all that colour.  She’s not the first kid I’ve known whose outward face belies amazing brain power.  Here’s to those visually non-conformists who show remarkable financial sense.  They’re puncturing holes in stereotypes, one piercing at a time.

 

what you want to do February 8, 2011

Filed under: Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 12:43 am
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  “You don’t define yourself by what you have to do to make a living, but by what you want to do. You’re a writer. I’m an artist.”  

(Charles de Lint’s Memory and Dream. p., 275)

I love this author, because his writing is full of small epiphanies.  Think of this.  You define yourself by what you WANT to do, not by what you do to make a living.  You may be an inventor who spends all day unplugging toilets, an actor who waits tables, a corporate executive studying for your junior high math exam, or a champion figure skater who works as a bank teller during the day.

At some point, dream must meet reality or you will feel very unfulfilled.  How do you define yourself.?

 

who you are February 6, 2011

Filed under: Friendship,Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 9:48 pm
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For years

They commented on

her flirtatiousness

her bawdy humour

her inappropriate comments

and she laughed

(loudly)

and said, “This is just

how I was raised.”

.

They thought, she’s low class,

but she’s family now.

We’re not snobs.  We can adapt.

So they tried to lift her up,

believe the best,

cheer her successes,

while they ignored the

alienation she fostered

against the father of her children

after all, (theoretically)

she raised them

in faith

and piously spouted the right words

(even if her actions didn’t always match).

.

“I’m a good person!”

she exclaimed angrily,

if someone noticed

an anomaly

between what she said and did.

They knew who she wanted to be.

Bad comes with the good.

We all have many layers.

Depth adds character.

She means well.

(most of the time).

.

Now she shouts

Don’t tell the children!

(grown adults with their own lives)

how she’s carrying on.

So desperate to prove

(to who?)

that she’s desirable

She’s sleeping  with anyone

who blinks at her.

Throwing money at a con man

and sending it Western Union

(which is, of course, untraceable)

Thousands and thousands

of dollars

she can’t afford to lose

sent into traitorous hands.

And then she gets it back

by conning someone else.

Tricky girl.

.

Don’t tell the children?

Seriously?

Don’t you think they know

that she’s a disgrace

to everything she told them

that she was?

and what she told them to be?

Everything she denied she was

is revealing itself.

.

Meanwhile

that poor man

still weeps in love for her

and she screams that

he’s what’s been

holding her back

and driving her to

this scandalous behavior

.

His fault?

Honey,

wake up.

He’s the rock of stability

 that has saved you from

ruining yourself

this way

long ago.

 

impossible? February 2, 2011

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 6:06 am
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I saw this on a random bulletin board today, uncredited.

Nothing is impossible. Even the word says “I’m possible.”

That’s cool.

Let’s be realistic: not everything is possible. I’d like to talk to my grandmother, but she died in 1968. No matter how much genealogy I do, or how much I find out about her life, it’s impossible that I will be able to have a conversation with her. There is nothing I can do to make it possible to talk to her.

But that doesn’t mean what seems impossible, actually is.  If you are five hundred pounds you are not going to win the Boston Marathon, for example. At least, it’s impossible as you are.  However, it is possible, if you lose weight and get fit, you may just have a fighting chance. That means what is impossible at this moment, may not be impossible forever. You just have to think, what do I have to do to make this happen?

Some things truly are impossible, but lots of things we think are impossible just need a little tweeking to become possible.  Change is the key.  What do you need to change in your life to make the impossible say “I’m possible!“?

 

musicful January 30, 2011

Filed under: Poetry — Shawn L. Bird @ 1:15 am
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I raise to wakefulness

on the strains of your piano

that pull me to consciousness.

The stumbled notes

of the imperfect rendering

reminds that only God is perfect,

and yet

as the imperfect notes carry me along

I can’t help thinking

that the iimperfection

makes you the most perfect

musician for me.

 

sideways sweater January 29, 2011

Filed under: Commentary — Shawn L. Bird @ 3:52 am
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So– um.  People have asked me for the pattern of this sweater, but since I kind of make it up as I go along, it’s a bit tricky to share.   I’ll do the best I can!

You’re going to have to already know how to knit to follow these instructions, because you’re going to need to be experienced enough to modify it if you don’t think it’s working for you, and to have a clue what I’m talking about.

First- I found this yarn in a bargain bin at Zellers- 3 balls for $5.99.  I have no idea of its name, brand, weight, etc.  There are two different yarns knit together.  One is a varigated black/beige boucle  (which created the diamond pattern with no help from me!) the other is a thin ribbon yarn in lime green.   I used less than 2 balls of each for the sweater.   It was knit on 7.5 mm regular needles to start the first sleeve, switched to 7.5 round needles (only so all the stitches could fit- it is not knit ‘in the round’) for the body, then back to the regular 7.5 mm needles for the other sleeve.  A 6.5 mm round needle is needed for the ribbing at the neckline. It’s knit all in one piece and is a size 12 or thereabouts.  The body diameter is 34″ but stretches quite a bit.  Make whatever modifications you need to make it work for you.

Cast on 50 stitches.  Knit in garter stitch (knit every row) for 14 inches.  Switch to round needles.  Add on 50 stitches, knit back, add another 50 stitches on the other side.  (this is the body) Knit 2″.  (one shoulder) Knit 45 stitches, cast off 10, continue to knit to the end of the row, return, and now add two new balls to continue.  Knit back and forth on one set of balls for the front, and the other set for the back for about 13″. Knit one side, cast on 10 to join up the neck again, tie one yarn into the other and cut (using just 2 balls again) continue down the other side.  Knit another 2″ to create the other shoulder.  Cast off 50 (back), knit to the end of the row turn, cast off 50, continue knitting the sleeve 14″.  Cast off. 

Using 6.5 round needles, pick up stitches around the neck.  (Pull yarn through every second vertical stitch onto the right needle).  Decide how high you want your neckline to go- this was knit 4″ in knit one purl one ribbing, then cast off loosely, folded over and whip stitched down.

If you wanted it to become a dress, you could use the same ribbing technique along the bottom hem to add 5 or 6 inches.

 

stay out of the settling pond January 28, 2011

Filed under: Literature,Pondering — Shawn L. Bird @ 9:04 pm
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“If we don’t change the world to suit us…then it’ll change us to suit it.” (Charles de Lint’s Memory and Dream. p. 17)

I keep coming back to this quote.  How often do we float with life, letting it act upon us instead of molding it the way we want it to be?   If we don’t want to be battered and beaten by the battles around us, we need to make the decisions that allow us to get out.

Finish school.

Get training.

Leave the deadbeat.

Take the anti-depressants.

Apply for the dream job.

Write the book.

Go on that trip.

We have to take control of who we want to be and make our life happen.  We have to get over the small fears to experience the greater benefit.  If we don’t, we have no reason to complain when life sweeps us along the gutter and dumps us unceremoniously into the settling pond.